CUL DE SAC

Here I am, in this senseless chaos. Lost, within the unrequited desperate measures. Inhale, all the radicals that shake my faith. Exhale, the groans of lust. SATISFIED.

Keeping up with your faith is not hard, at the same time, it is not easy. That's the reality when one has a sense of clarity (or otherwise), when it comes to preaching. Surprisingly, it is the one simple sigh towards any daily conducts like prayers and duas  that messes our consistency in ibadah . The same simple sigh also leads to the feeling of difficulty in performing ibadah .  The thing is, how could we not sigh? We are human and we are flawed. We are bound to feel the negativity because that's what being human is about -- NO!  Yes, we are flawed and yes we are bound to feel what we feel but those, who are flawed and human yet hardly sigh nor feel negative, are the ones who have the sense of clarity that drives them to consistency in ibadah . The key to clarity and consistency is in us. A lot could change if we learn how to be thankful. This is because those who are thankful to their Creator are the ones who have the sense of clarity, are the ones who are ...

I was once asked to comment about the Malaysian Muslim LGBT community. My view is simple: Gays are ahli-ahli syurga* . They are Mujahids**  when they live their lives fighting against their desires. Being gay is simply a gift only if gays understand how Allah is ever giving and loving. Wallahualam. *Members of the Heaven **A Muslim engaged in what he considers a jihad

Look at the mist covering those hills.  It's like cotton candy.  Now look at the gloomy clouds. It glooms happily just like cotton candy too. There are hopes and fears. The mist hopes to stay, However, the gloomy clouds fear of not having enough time to stay.  Indeed, togetherness can be tragically beautiful sometimes. Nonetheless, little they knew that if they have strong faith, they will end up to be together again.  How could they not? All of us will ...eventually. It's a promise.  They may be apart as soon as the sun comes up. Everything dries up. The mist and the clouds will fade away.  But, the very essence of both of them is water. Science taught us that, remember?  That's what the knowledge of Alam  is. We hardly see how our surrounding is a clear reflection of ourselves. Our lives, our hopes, and our fears.  We are scared of losing ...someone we love, someone we care about, someone who we believe is important.  We are worried an...

...is good. Even though it's bad, it's good. Alhamdulillah.

Goodbyes are tough, but they are necessary. Be strong.

We carelessly make mistakes, or rather commit sins, over and over again to the point that repentance seems to be impossible. Most of the time, knowing the seriousness of our sins makes us question whether or not our repentance is accepted by Allah. I guess that is the thing about being human. We think too much to the extent where we forgot that we are not God. So why bother asking whether our repentance is accepted or not in the first place? Why think too much about our sins? Let bygones be bygones. Make amends with our own self and let Allah settle the rest. If you know you are sinned, repent and do not repeat the mistakes again. It is simple, really! Wallahualam . (Source: quran.com)

There is no place in this world that we belong to until we fix ourselves to be in it. 

If you are cynical, judging and most of the time, you overly predict human behavior and responses, and you are terribly blunt with words or facial expressions which of course additionally you have poor control over your quick reactions, think of a traffic light: Red means STOP, Yellow means BE CAREFUL, and Green means GO! You cannot remove the reaction that you have. You would probably be thinking and processing the information in your brain while dealing with it at the same time. The key is to delay the reaction. Do not react so quickly. If it is RED, then it is RED all the way. Next, allow yourself to let everything go. Do not even think or talk about it with another person. In your prayers, ask forgiveness from Allah for looking at His creations wrongly. May Allah bless us and our efforts to change ourselves for the better.

Once I was told to expect less because having expectations would somehow hurt me. Nevertheless, if you truly understand that nothing is coincident, or that every person is here/there for a reason, or that a leaf falls exactly at the time it is meant to fall; you would see that there is one expectation that you are allowed to have, that is, the expectation that you will get a fair share of every action that you do, and that God will give you exactly what you need. Hence, if there is a need for you to be happy, make others happy, surely, God will make you happy too (or vise versa). 

Every time I listen to Incubus, there's this distant memory of my past plays in my brain like a black-and-white movie with no sounds.